Problems Accepting Your Gay ?

Hi guys i just thought id post about something i found hard to deal with which was - accepting that i was gay and trying to be "normal"

I had trouble with this because i thought that it wasn't normal to be gay and have feelings for another man.
Before youtube or support sites on the internet i had no clue on how to accept or to help with something i wanted an answer so i found it nearly impossible to deal with my feelings that i had stored away at the back of mind
I Couldnt never tell anyone as that would have been bad because there would had been questions asked that i couldnt and didnt want to answer.

The Problem with supressing your feelings or hiding away from your true self is dangerous and will lead you to going crazy with all of these thoughts in your head.

I thought wen i was trying to learn about what gay meant, i was obessed with a certain guy who i thought i was in love with and i was obessed with him wanting him to be mine and i did some pretty awful things which i wont go into but it was bad.

Another problem is other people who happen to know your gay or anything and bully you and scream abuse at you which i ad and still get it now but i choose to ingore it or try to block it out and get on with my life.

If i had any advice for someone who was struggling with their sexuality then i would advise speaking to someone you can trust ,researching information online as there is some brilliant websites with great advice and answers to some of the questions you might have

Also if you watch youtube check out this channel http://www.youtube.com/user/wickydkewl
i watch thes videos and find them agreat deal of help of dealing with my sexuality and stuff

Thanks for Reading

Dolly Rockers - Je Suis Une Dolly

I Was listening to Scott Mills show on radio1 and they played this new song that he liked and this new girl band called The Dolly Rockers.

Here is the Song i am talking about



I just love this song. Its amzing and very catchy so go download it.

If you think they mite be familar its because they featured on the xfactor acouple of years ago



If You want more information on the Dolly Rockers You can Visit Their Myspace
The Dolly Rockers

Also Their Website

Dolly Rockers

Pixie Lott - Mama Do

I was on youtube and i came across this song from a new artist called Pixie Lott.

She is being touted as the next big star to burst onto the music scene in 2009

Here is her debut single called Mama Do



This is a acoustic version of the song One Republic's Apologize.



Both songs sound amazing

Mama Do is released on June 8th

Official Youtube Page
http://www.youtube.co/user/pixieofficial

Her Website
http://www.pixielott.com

Eurovision Song Contest 2009 Results

So the Eurovision Song Contest 2009 is over so how did Jade Ewan do for the Uk?

Well she come 5th which is brilliant

heres her performance




The Winning song came from Norway
The Artist was Alexander Rybak
Song is called Fairytale
Heres the performance



The Winning song was the highest scoring song in all of the contest history scoring 387 points smashing the record set in 2006 by finland which as round the 300 mark

Boom Boom Pow - Black Eyed Peas

Hi The Black Eyed Peas Are Back !!!!!

Their New Music Sounds Amazing

The FIrst Song To Be Lifted From Their New Studio Album The E.N.D.(The Energy Never Dies)

Its Been Number 1 in The Usa For 5 weeks Now And It Is Set to Be Number 1 In The Uk On Sunday

Booty Luv - Say It

This is the new Single From Booty Luv

Sounds amazing

This is the First Song To Be Lifted From Their Second Album

It Is Out On 3rd August 2009

When I Realized I Was Gay And My Coming Out Story

Hi There I thought i would post something that i havent told many people and I thought id Post sometthing about me.

Im David and I'm Gay.

I first realized i was gay when i was about 13 when i was watching this film that was on tv,cant remember the film but remember thinking i quite fancy that guy in the film and also a couple of guys in high school i found attractive .

I tried to get the thoughts out of my head cause i was afraid of not being normal as i thought that was what i felt like at the time and also to my life worse i was heavily bullied at school which didnt help . I Went downhill and wanted to do some awful things to end my life of the bullying and the what i thought were dirty thoughts in my head.
Anyway i got chatting to someone who i knew was gay and he helped me through. I came around to the idea that being gay was not dirty and its just a part of you and you are no different to anyone else around.

Like people say you should tell some friends before you tell your close family. Idid that but i ended up with no friends because most of them disowned me because they couldnt take it and i think as some of them were guys that they thought i was gonna try and hit on them. We don'thit on every guy jsut to say. Now I think that was agood thing because it they cant handle me being myself then they are no real friends .

Iwas nervous telling my family and i couldnt tell them so i decided before i went to work the following day i wrote them each anote saying i was gay and my feelings why i wouldnt tell them . Before that i had told my sister and she was fine with it so that was a relief. Lukily My family reacted fine and they were supportive so that was a major relief.

I know many people dont have any support during when we most need it. I feel for those people because i know what it is like to feel so alone and wanting help but dont know what to do for the best.

One of my things that relaxed me was music or what i used to wtach comedy dvds.

One of the hardest things for me now if i like a guy im really scared to go and talk to him even though he is gay id be so scared to even approach him.

People have asked me in the past if i have agf and i have lied saying yes and gone as far as saying as making up random names and a story about it to cover my tracks. That was also down to because i had abf at the time and i was suppposed to be going out with people from work and i decided to stay in cause he cooked me a wonderful meal. Shame Couple of weeks later we broke up and i was down for along down.


Ever since i have been looking for aguy to date with no luck . I am still looking for a boyfriend but i am not obessive about it.

Now 1 month from my 20th birthday, god i am getting old, am glad to be leaving my teenage years behind because they have bben so stressful and i also dont regret anything i have done in these years because them things have made me the person i am today

My advice to anyone struggling with their sexuality like i was my advice would be try to condife to someone you trust or someone like adoctor or a teacher or someone like that and tell them how you are feeling .
Also find something you can do to try to focus on to get your mind off feeling it. Like listening to music just something you love to do and trust me it helps if you give it time.

If anyone wants any help on this subject you can either talk to me on facebook my profile link is in on the side just click the facebook link and add me that way or email me y0david6@hotmail.com or do a google search there are some great websites giving help to people who are struggling with their sexuality and succeess stories who are happy to help
I feel better now for writing about this and feel like aweight has been lifted thanks for reading

till next time

david xxx

Wenthworth Mller

Robert Pattinson - Little Ashes

Here's Javier Beltran making his move on Robert Pattinson in new movie Little Ashes.

Charmed

I Love This Tv Show Called Charmed

Which Is About Three Sisters Who Find Out That Their Family Is A Line Of Witches With These Magical Powers.

Shannen Doherty Played Oldest Sister Prue Halliwell Who Had the Power Of Moving Things With Her Mind

Holly Marie Combs Played Middle Sister Piper Halliwell Who Had the Power To Freeze Things and Developed The Power To Blow Things Up.

Orginally Lori Rom Played Phoebe Halliwell In the Unaired Pilot but due to Personal Reasons She Quit Before The Show Went To Air

They Then Appointed Alyssa Milano To Play Phoebe Halliwell Who Had These Visions About Past Events and Furture Events and Later on Developed the Power Of Levitation

The Show Ran For 3 Seasons From 1998-2001

During Season 3 Of the Show Shannen Doherty(Prue) Decided That the Work wasn't Fullfilling Enough And Left The Show That the End of That Season

There Were Rumours Floating About That Shannen and Alyssa Didn't Get on Very Well On The Set And Were Arguing But To This Day It is Just A Rumour.

The Show Did Come Back For A Fourth Season In the Later Part of 2001 With A New Character In The Form Of Paige Matthews.

Rose Mcgowan Was Appointed The Role Of Playing Paige Matthews, Who Was A Half Sister To Piper,Phoebe And Prue.
Her Power Was That Should Move Things With Her Mind, Very Much Like Prue's Power But She Was Half Whitelighter From Her Fathers Side And She Orbed Things Across from One Place To Another.

The Show Then Made Another 4 Seasons With Rose and It Ended In 2006.

Also I have Found A Video On Youtube So thanks to Youtube Member Who Posted This Video Charmed20

It Is Done Of How Prue's Death Affected Piper and Phoebe And Shows Memories From When Prue Was Alive.

I have Seen Loads of Prue Rembered Videos On Youtube And This Is Still My Favourite

The Song Used Is Slipped Away By Avril Lavinge

Attitude Magazine

Hi guys thanks for checking out my blog .
I hope you guys like it.

If you want to follow my on twitter my profile is
http://twitter.com/y0david6

Today i bought the new edition of Attuide Magazine

More Info About this magazine here
http://www.attitude.co.uk/

The pictures were amazing I have to say

I will try to post them shortly

If you have any suggestions and improvements for the blog leave a comment and i will try to update it to the best i can

see you soon david xxx

The Saturdays - Work

This Is The New Single From The band The Saturdays

Here is the link To Their Website For More Infomation On The Band
http://www.thesaturdays.co.uk/

Their New Single Is Called Work And Will Be Out On June 29th 2009

Hope You Enjoy